My help comes from not change

 Often asked myself over and over again in my heart, you in the end to what?
Long time ago, when people ask me this question, my answer is do not know, I know I do not want anything.
Now, I still do not know, and I do not even own is no longer understand anything.
these years, I have been trying to avoid, but some things can never escape a lifetime to face. remember, wanted to escape, then, that their escape far away, happy, and then later, only to find I am but that is only a kite, never break the line can not kite.
fact, I clearly recognize that, as long as I want, I can do that for only a kite role, as long as I make people happy kite flying, I will always be able to always glamorous and can be the envy of others so that the owner really proud of and proud. Of course, if so, I would sincerely unaware of their role , and then happily live out the rest of my life I may not be short.
one more thing I am puzzled, because I have been able to chat with a good boy, no matter what chat, there will always be joyful, It made me feel at least I should be pleasant in this regard. But then I discovered that I love my boys with nothing to say, is not really nothing to say, only because the relationship between the total Huabutouji is Mohuazhaohua, so I thought, ah this person is wrong. and then later a time when we all had a drink, talk together, from dusk to midnight, very happy, as friends do talk about everything together in our two years have not had that kind of talk. I think we better, but I found the next day, we are still cautious and Mohuazhaohua. Then, I discovered a cup, I only fit to be a friend, based on my principles do not fall in love with a friend, it means I'll have no way to laugh with love the chat as friends, maybe the next life, I every day and in the tangle Meihuazhaohua Meihuazhaohua this matter spent.
of the above two things, and today I did not take the person's phone kite, maybe they will not be happy, but I am not happy, so so be it. And then I eat some of the friends in KTV sing and then go home talking movies, I do not seem so unhappy.
now, I sincerely hope that a strong wind blowing, bigger then bigger, even if the rope has been blown away, please let me point, I do not want to face all the people watching me, and then think about it, really I am in the end to what.